Tonight my juice fast came to an end. I went 20 days, rather than the 40 I was pushing for. But I am so proud of myself. The guys in the documentary that inspired me were away from friends and family. They were not working (3 jobs like me). And they were able to completely focus on their fasts. I had lots of distractions, including a job that focuses on food, cooking and preparing meals twice a week. So to continue fasting through my job, my daughters Sweet 16, and my husband's love of going out to dinner was a minor miracle. But I felt like I could go back to food now and my relationship with food will be different.
My first meal tonight was a whole wheat vegetarian taco. It was really good. I'll still juice during the day and only eat one meal for the next 10 days, so technically I'm still juicing. But I'm enjoying this time getting to know food all over again. And being mindful of what I eat. And enjoying every bite.
Tomorrow, I must integrate exercise. I've been so tired from the working, six kids, fasting, adversity (lol), and the work that I'm doing on myself to make sure I never see 266 again- that it's easy to make up excuses for why I haven't worked out. But the truth of the matter is- it's the only way to keep the weight that I lost on the fast off (kkt- I was listening). So tomorrow, no matter what, I get in some workout.
